Christmas Hike

I always want it to snow in the winter. I hold treasured memories of snow days from growing up in the suburbs of Chicago. But Boise is typically mild in the valley. Those who want snow must seek it in the mountains and ski basins - for the most part.

This year, the snow began falling on 12/23, kept falling through 12/24 and gave us a perfectly white, and sunny, Christmas day. Of course I had to go play in it!

My husband and I agreed to go for a walk in the afternoon. We would head towards the golf course by way of the Greenbelt and maybe go up towards Table Rock. Because we weren't taking a good deal of supplies, the farthest we would go would be a point 2 miles from home for a 4 mile round trip - max.

A winter wonderland awaited right outside our apartment door. 

Someone (me) made a snow angel on Christmas Eve day. 

Sure, we could have walked in the street and avoided post-holing on the sidewalk, but where would the adventure be in that? Besides, we were kitted out for snow and snow we would have! 

The Greenbelt had tracks from skis and fat tire bikes. 

Geese and ducks gathered in the water near the water treatment plant.

Table Rock looms over the golf course which was closed for golfing, but we saw skiers making tracks across it. 

Houses up on the foothills are nearly covered in misty clouds. 

I wanted to hike all the way up to Table Rock. Kind of. But only if we had brought water. 

I liked how icicles dripped from the tree's needles. 

This bench gives a good indication of how much snow we really got. A lot! 

Those little yellow flags mark the holes on the putting green. 

Ambrose makes his way up the trail slow and steady. 

At last! A bird held still enough for me to take his portrait. A robin, I think. 

Climbing the snowy trail in the icy air gave me a feeling of pure joy. Every breath was exhilarating. Even though every step was difficult, even though the wind bit at my exposed skin, being out there and exerting myself was perfect.  

Yeah, we went up there.

I was getting closer to the plateau where we'd have to stop. 

The wind was getting stronger and colder the higher I climbed. 

Since I knew the point of return would be exposed and windy, I took shelter in the lee of a large boulder and waited for Ambrose to gain on me. There, I watched snowmelt drip off of the rock and managed to capture it just before it fell. 

I thought the orange flags marked the trail, but then I started to see them "everywhere."

I could see hardier souls than us on top of Table Rock. Although, to be fair, they could have driven up there, if their vehicles were up for it. There is a paved road up there, after all. 

Ambrose is almost to the plateau! 

He made it and I got him to take a picture of me. The down jacket and down balaclava were a little too heavy for walking on the Greenbelt, but for being up there in the wind they were barely warmth enough. 

I think I'm getting better at taking pictures of us with the camera - this was my first try :)
 

Going downhill, Ambrose kept pace with me. 

Here, he demonstrates the depth of the snow. 

We're almost back to the flats of the Greenbelt. I have reached the point where I can't wait to get home and shower. 

And yet, I found it in myself to take the time to climb the golf course parking lot's snow plow pile. 

Ambrose walked in the street on our last stretch home, but I stubbornly stayed on the snowy sidewalk. 

He told me that he liked being on the street because he was ahead of me. And it was true, I couldn't keep pace with him. My feet sunk into the snow and slipped and slid while he ambled on.

But I wasn't about to let that stop me.

With only a couple blocks to go before home, I started to run through the snow. I half ran, half leaped through the snow, gaining on him. When I reached the shoveled sidewalk in front of an apartment complex, I gained yet more. And then I hit one more patch of snow and went for it. I was breathing so heavy I was sure he could hear me coming; he said he heard my footsteps on the clear patch of sidewalk. But it was through snow that I drew even to him, and then passed him, heaving for breath and very satisfied.

Despite not feeling very cold while I was walking, once I got into that hot shower, I realized that our 3 hour hike had left me colder than I realized as my skin burned at the warmth.

But I still can't wait to do it again.

Three Years of Crossfit

Just over three years ago, I tried Crossfit for the first time. At the time, I couldn't afford more than 1 month of classes, but I went every day that I could and blogged about it here. After that first 30 days, I was hooked.

I couldn't afford to go back right away, but I saved up and bought ten punch passes, using them for one or two classes a week to stretch them out enough so I could buy more. Last March, my finances were finally at a point where I could afford the monthly membership.

Because of how much the classes cost, I held them dear. I strove to make it to at least 10 classes a month, so that I would be meeting or exceeding what I could have done with a 10 punch pass. I averaged 3 classes a week from the end of March through July. August was different, because I had two full week backpacking trips that took a bite out of my availability. But in September I got back into the swing of things, and then the Nutrition challenge happened in mid-October.

Part of the Nutrition challenge was to workout as frequently as possible, to aid with the weight loss. So I focused on going to 5 or 6 classes a week and made that goal in the 30 days of the challenge.

Since then, I've dropped back to a mere 4 classes per week, on average. I've been meaning to do 5, but I can't seem to reconcile going on Sunday, waiting for my husband to get back from the gym and then going to the gym myself to do my pull up workout. So I just go to the gym with my husband to get my pull up workout done.

To be honest, I only knew it was 3 years because Arbor Crossfit emailed me about it. I hadn't been thinking about it. But, looking back, I'm proud of the progress that I've made. I can do a pull up. My weight lifting technique has improved. I know more names than I used to. I still scale a lot of movements and weights, but that's part of the beauty of Crossfit. I can scale any workout to a place that pushes me; I can work my hardest without breaking myself. And who knows where I'll be in another 3 years if I keep at it.

Fitness Progress

Yesterday at Crossfit, we did one of the Open workouts. 14.4 to be exact. The last time I had tried that workout was in February of 2015. It was just before the Open, and we were practicing for it. Practicing for the Open meant pairing up and taking turns doing the workout and judging each other. I happened to be paired with one of the most athletic women there.

The workout is simple enough. 60 calorie row, 50 toes to bar, 40 wallballs (14 lbs for women), 30 cleans (95 lbs for women), 20 muscle ups. As many rounds as possible of those exercises in 14 minutes.

Back in February 2015, that did not go very well for me.

I got through the 60 calorie row. It took me a while, but I did it.

And then I spent the rest of the time desperately trying to do even a single toes to bar.

I got close several times, whiffing the bar with one shoe, but not both. I kept trying, even as it became obvious that my body was not ready for that movement. The spirit was willing, but the flesh was weak.

I was so frustrated that day. I didn't feel like I had gotten a good workout, because I spent most of my time not doing toes to bar. I was practically in tears by the time I walked home, and I was certain that I wouldn't be participating in the Open.

But I spoke to other people who, like me, couldn't do toes to bar (some of them had wisely just scaled the damn movement). And I was convinced that, because in 2015 there would be scaling options for the Open, that I could give it a try.

I did, and I enjoyed it.

When I saw this workout posted last night, I was excited. There have been a couple workouts in the last few weeks involving toes to bar, and I knew I could do them. I wasn't entirely sure about 50 in a row in the time frame, but I could start them. I could beat my last attempt for sure.

We didn't do it as a judged workout this time. Everyone judged themselves. I set up for the wallballs and the cleans, both with scaled weights (12 lbs and 55 lbs), but I didn't bother to put much thought into what I would do instead of muscle ups. My focus was on conquering those toes to bar.

I took a slow and steady approach to the row, trying to keep my calories per hour above 800 and my stroke rate below 27. I surprised myself by not finishing last and headed over to the bar.

In mostly sets of 5, I worked my way slowly through 50 toes to bar. The only sets that weren't 5 were the last 2. My toes missed the bar on rep number 49. I hit on the next one and dropped, leaving me still at 49. I had to hop up one last time to finish, despite the pain in my hands that grew worse with each rep.

There was less than a minute to go; I had no hope of completing 40 wallballs no matter how light I went. So I went rogue and borrowed someone else's rx weight wallball (14 lbs), because she was busy doing the cleans and wouldn't need it. I got in 6 reps. And since I didn't make it to the movements that I couldn't do at rx (the cleans would have been difficult and the muscle ups impossible), my workout was rx.

50 toes to bar. From 0 about 20 months ago. Progress can be slow. It can go in fits and starts. But I am making progress.

Plateau?

My husband thinks I've reached a plateau on my pull ups. I don't think he's wrong, but I'm not sure what to do about it. As soon as I could do a pull up, that was awesome, but I wanted to be able to do more than 1, and to keep being able to do them.

I kept doing the workout that led me to being able to do 1, but backpacking season reduced my opportunities to workout at a gym. I ended up with a very sporadic rate of working out, completely unlike the serious, focused effort that led to number 1.

Between coming down with colds, school work and other challenges, I haven't been able to regain that focused effort on my pull up workouts until the last two weeks or so. I'm hoping that if I can get back into the swing of things, I'll be able to start seeing some improvement again, but I might not.

From the research I've done, the best way to train to do more pull ups is to do pull ups, but I don't have a pull up bar handy at home or at work. I do them when I go to the gym (3 days a week if I keep up with my workout schedule), when I go to Crossfit (4 days a week, after the workout if that day's WOD doesn't include them), and when I go grocery shopping at Winco (their cart returns are a little short, but completely workable for pull ups). 2 of the gym days overlap with the Crossfit days and I only go shopping once every 2 weeks, so that's really not enough.

I'm hoping that if I refocus on the pull up workout, and get consistent again, that my reps will increase, but I have to face the possibility that I might be reaching a plateau with that method. If I have another opportunity to attend a workshop on pull ups, then I will; I might even look outside of my normal sources to find one. But I have a hard time believing that any program will tell me much that I don't already know.

Do more pull ups!

Or lose weight... The weight loss from the nutrition challenge did seem to make the movement easier, but it also left me extra exhausted so it was hard to figure out if I had actually gotten a net benefit when it came to pull ups.

I really want to be able to do 5 pull ups in a row without dropping from the bar. And I want to be able to do more kipping pull ups without dropping. And world peace. That's not so much to ask, is it?

30 Day Nutrition Challenge

I, and to an extent, my husband, took a nutrition challenge recently. We changed our eating habits entirely, and I also tried to track my caloric intake and make sure I got close to getting my calories from 10% or less of carbs, 60% fat and 30% protein, give or take.

On the one hand, this meant being able to eat bacon and eggs, all kinds of meats. On the other hand, it meant cutting out bread altogether along with just about anything with added sugar. We also cut out most fruits and took care with the vegetables to limit carbs.

We both lost weight over the 30 days. I proved to myself that I could indeed cut all those delicious little candy treats out of my life and survive. No candy, no donuts, no pumpkin muffins with cream cheese icing that my director brought in on the first day, no cupcakes at the office Halloween party, no Halloween candy, no party cake, no bread, no crackers, no chips. I can do that. For at least 30 days.

By the time the diet ended, I had stopped craving sweets, but I still craved bread, crackers and rice. I dreamed about pasta.

But each day that I succeeded gave me the strength I needed to get through the next one. I know I can't maintain that kind of diet indefinitely, partly because I'm pretty sure my doctor would have a conniption fit if she knew how much cholesterol I was consuming, and partly because my discipline in avoiding carbs only stretches so far.

I haven't weighed myself since the challenge ended. It isn't so much that I'm afraid to know how much I've gained back, though that's part of it. Mostly, I don't have a desire to obsess over my weight at the moment. I am happy with going about my exercise routines and knowing that I can lose weight if I put in the effort.

The diet was a marathon in my fitness journey; a long period of focused effort. But it was not the entirety of my journey. That experiment has ended; the journey continues.

The Fit One Half

I probably shouldn't have run in the Fit One half marathon back in September.

I bought the entry on a high discount way back in June. $20 for a half marathon? How could I possibly refuse, even knowing that I was going to be doing some hard core hiking in August?

My solo and the Chamberlain Basin hikes in August did drain my body's resources. And I battled little illnesses through the beginning of September that stopped me from training in any practical way. I got some exercise. I ran a little bit. I did not train.

And, until the day before the race, I still wasn't sure I was going to show up and do it. My stomach had been acting up. My legs were sore. I'd been plagued with headaches that week and I was driving my husband more than a little crazy.

The morning of the race, I managed to forget my bib until he'd almost driven me to the drop off point. He patiently drove me back to get it and, thanks to a delayed start, I wasn't late.

In the past, I've made a commitment in running races never to walk. To keep running no matter what. For this race, in my unprepared state, I threw that stricture out the window. I wasn't going to walk the course, but I wasn't going to run the whole thing either.

At every food/water station, I walked. I took energy gels and water and watered down Gatorade and kept myself fueled - also not typical of my past racing strategies, which tended towards the don't eat or drink anything lest ye stomach get upset. I even stopped to use the bathroom despite having to wait in line for an open toilet.

And just like that, I found myself with 5 miles down. This eating instead of letting myself get down to the dregs of my energy might have something to it.

Last year's half, I ran steadily for the first 8 miles and then had to take walking intervals. I was forced to those walking intervals and I resented them. I couldn't even get myself to jog up the hill to the train depot. This year, I found myself with enough spring in my step to run up the hill all the way to the aid station.

And I finished the course faster than the previous year's time.

Granted, the course was slightly shorter, by as much as 0.15 miles. But I'm going to stick with believing that it was the way I arranged my race, acknowledging my weaknesses and working around them rather than trying to bull through them.

I was hurting at the end of the race, but not as much as the prior year. I hardly even complained at the walk from the celebration at the park to the campus parking lot where my husband had stashed the car. I didn't even whine when he told me he had parked much farther away than necessary (which he hadn't).

With my solo scheduled for March this year, I'm looking forward to next year's September half. As long as I can get that good price in June.

Chamberlain Basin August 2016 - Going Home

I fully expected to sleep in after staying up until nearly 2 in the morning waiting for Ambrose to return and then nursing him enough to get him to bed. But the rising sun and my body's own hunger pulled me out of sleep before 7 am. Ambrose wasn't far behind me, if not ahead of me in waking up. I was tired, but moving was better than staying still - especially because if we moved quickly enough we'd make it to Yellow Pine in time for breakfast.

I walked down to the Big Creek trailhead one last time, despite the protests of my feet and legs, to retrieve the coconut water that I'd placed on a post for Ambrose. He hadn't seen it, and I didn't want to leave it behind. It was undisturbed and nicely chilled.

We packed the car and Ambrose settled into the passenger seat. He had driven us up, so it was my job to drive us back home - plus he wasn't exactly in terrific shape for driving at the moment, and although I was low on sleep, I was physically in better shape.

That didn't mean that I liked driving 5 to 10 miles per hour on bumpy, rocky, narrow, steep and winding roads. After my failure to get even down to the trailhead with the car the day before, I was downright paranoid at first. But after a couple of miles, the road improved a little bit, and I relaxed enough to occasionally hit a daring 15 miles per hour.

The morning was beautiful, but Ambrose and I stank. Usually, I like to take some time to wash off before heading home, but this spot didn't offer a good spot for that. So we opened the windows as soon as it was warm enough and ignored the smells of hard travel. At least our clothes were clean.

I was glad that Ambrose was getting a chance to admire the scenery I had seen on the drive up. Much of the road was next to flowing creeks, sunlight flashing on water as we drove by at a pace that only seemed a little faster than I could have walked.

We made it to Yellow Pine in time to order breakfast, and they didn't kick us out for smelling like we hadn't showered in a week. Both of us were feeling extra hungry, so we stopped by the espresso/milk shake shop on the way out of town, where I ran into an old acquaintance and got a milkshake for us to share - though I, being the driver, would get the lion's share of it.

As we were leaving Yellow Pine, I felt certain that I knew how to go back the way we came. Go straight at the junction. But Ambrose insisted that we should turn right, and I followed his directions.

This, as it turned out, was not the same road on which we came, but it was a nicer road, in my opinion. It was wide and relatively smooth. When we reached the next junction, where we had a chance to choose between heading to McCall or Warm Lake, I decided to take the left turn to Warm Lake and discovered yet another nice road. This one was even paved, although it was also single lane. And rather curvy.

We only had four or five encounters with vehicles going the opposite direction. And none of them hit us, though a couple came close. Overall, I liked the route better than what I remembered of the way we came, because it was paved and followed a beautiful river.

Ambrose and I talked about our Chamberlain hike sporadically during the drive. We both agreed that we wanted to go back and hike it again. I think we've only just scratched the surface of what can be seen there, but the next trip will probably be a better planned version of the hike that we just took. Now that we know where to find water, when to fill up, and where campsites are, and aren't.

We'll be able to hike faster next time, most likely, since we've been trending that way every year. And a familiar trail always seems to go a bit faster than a new one anyway.

Once we hit Warm Lake, the time passed quickly. We stopped in Cascade for a lunch, and then drove home. Still contemplating next time, but also relieved to be home, to have a few days of rest and relaxation ahead before the routine of work and school began again for the fall.

Chamberlain Basin August 2016 - Day 6 Part 2

I arrived at the jeep road just after 5pm. Where the jeep road met the trail, it angled uphill towards the Pueblo Summit and down towards Smith Creek Road. I sat with my feet propped uphill while I leaned against my pack and ate snacks. We had a dinner to cook, but we weren’t planning on eating it until we got to the car so snacking was essential.

Ambrose had to come down from there eventually. 

I waited and ate and read. I was sitting on some grass at the side of the road facing the trail. I could hear Ambrose approaching, but I stayed sitting. I figured he would want to take a break when he got there, but he didn’t.

He came around the corner and kept walking on while I scrambled to get my boots back on and my pack situated. I couldn’t blame him for moving on; there was no water here. So we hiked down the jeep road. It was definitely not a road our car could handle, but that wasn’t the plan.

I passed Ambrose quickly, but stopped soon after that because I saw a campsite and heard water. I dumped my pack and found that there was indeed accessible water and quite a nice little campsite set up. I got out the pot and my water bags to start filtration. Ambrose caught up and took a seat on a convenient log.

Behind Ambrose on the jeep road. 

A nice little camping clearing, with accessible water just across the road. 

Then we discussed our plan again. I would head down the jeep road at a zooming pace and get to the car as fast as I could. Ambrose would come down at his own pace and take his time. When I got to the car, I’d try to drive it up the road as far as I safely could and pick Ambrose up where he was. Ideally, I’d be able to drive up to where the jeep road met Smith Creek Road and save him over 3 miles.

Worst case, he’d have a long hike.

He insisted that I drink a pint of coconut water before I left him. I felt so optimistic that I would be able to bring the car to him. I’d be the rescue ranger hero of the day. All I had to do was move my feet as fast as possible.

Just before I left, he asked if I wanted to camp there. I almost said yes. It was after 6 in the evening and we were at a lovely little campsite with easy water access. We could easily spend the night and finish the last of the hike in the morning. But the siren song of the car was calling me. There was coconut water there, not powdered, but cool and fresh. A big tent, a cushy sleeping pad and clean clothes…

I headed down the jeep road as Ambrose continued to filter water into his bladder. I was going with what I had because I figured I’d have plenty to get back to the car at my zoom speed. I felt a tug in my heart as I left him behind. I had to trust that he would be able to get himself at least down to the road, and, possibly, all the way back to where the car was parked, without me there to chivy him along and keep his spirits up.

Clearly, the jeep road was being maintained. 

I could still see the sun through the trees, but it was inexorably setting. 

Muddy water on the road. 

The road had trouble deciding whether it wanted to be rocky or muddy. I used my mismatched trekking poles to keep my ankles from turning on the rocks and to speed my steps along. There was clear evidence of recent maintenance in the stacks of sawed logs at the side of the road - what side there was of the road.

Every time I stopped to take a picture, I was conscious of the angle of the sun. Most of the time, I couldn’t see the sun because of my position snugged up against a westerly ridge, but when the road turned I could see it starting to turn the golden of pre-dusk. I had studied the map, but I was mostly relying on the GPS at this point, because I figured my map case would slow me down. I had actually stowed the map case - I know now I should have left Ambrose the maps, since I had the GPS, but I didn’t.

It looks like it could be lived in, if not currently occupied. 

I think that log on the left is supposed to be a "bridge."

There was an old mine on the road and I started to see structures through the trees as I made my way down. Old cabins, in various states of disrepair. I wanted to go and explore them, but I didn’t know if they might be occupied or private property. Plus, I was in a tiny bit of a hurry.

I did take pictures of most every building I saw.

Another fairly intact structure. 

This one looks like nature has defeated it. 

The sun's still shining. For now. 

Although the road on the map did not divide or deviate, I ran into intersections. Some of them were like driveways, and I knew not to take those, but others were more like roads of their own. I chose the roads based on what I considered logical at the time, and I dragged my trekking poles in the gravel to show Ambrose where I had walked.

Nature wins again. 

The largest structure I saw. It was near a road leading off the to the left, possibly a driveway.

I did consider stopping to wait for him, because technically it was a junction and I wait at junctions for my hiking partner.

But I hiked on. Because I would serve my hiking partner better in this case by getting to the car and driving it back to him. I trusted that he would follow my scrape lines in the gravel and not get too lost. I made sure they were really long and big, as obvious as possible.

I crossed little streams that crossed the road and took pictures near the mine. Of course, the pictures weren’t always the best because I was not interested in moving slowly. I would stop, snap, and if the picture was blurry, oh well, I could get one next time.

As I passed the last house like structure off the road, I saw a sign for the Smith Creek Cut-Off Trail. Logically, I thought, this would be something that I could hike and avoid the long detour that cars had to take staying on the jeep road. I knew from the map that I would be hiking far away from my destination only to double back once I reached the main road off the creek. But I didn’t want to explore an unknown trail by myself. I stayed on the road and wondered if Ambrose would try the cut-off.

If I had been hiking with Ambrose, we probably would have chanced it.

My resolve was immediately challenged, because the road crossed another body of water and then went uphill. I really felt that the road should be going downhill all the way, but according to the GPS, this was not an unexpected thing. I made my way up the hill and decided I’d turn right around if it didn’t turn back downhill right quick.

Why is the trail going up?

Okay, good, it's heading down again.

It took a little longer than I wanted, but the road did trend down again, and turn west. The sun was low enough by now that I didn’t have any in my eyes as I made my way to the junction.

The junction was not what I expected. I thought I’d see a main road going west and east; instead, to the west the road was ATV only and to the east it wasn’t much better. The wear on the gravel and dirt of the road showed that more vehicles went up the jeep road than down the ATV section. Or they turned around using the jeep road. One or the other.

Almost there. I've got to be almost there. 

This is not the junction I thought I was looking for... 

Maybe an ATV will come roaring up the ATV trail and give me a ride?

I sat down and took a break. It was almost 7. The sun would set before 9. I had 3 to 4 miles to go to the car. So I didn’t take a long break. And (much to Ambrose’s later disappointment) I didn’t take another GPS fix for the rest of my hike. I stuffed some gorp in my mouth and looked at the junction, hoping to see signs of people, perhaps friendly people, riding ATVs and willing to wait for Ambrose to get down and give him a ride back to the car.

Such people did not materialize in the few minutes that I sat on the side of the road. In fact, no one materialized. I stood and set to walking.

I figured that I’d need at least 90 minutes to get to the car. I can do a 20 minute mile, but I had a heavy pack and it had been a long day. I wasn’t anticipating making that pace with my current state of footsore tiredness. Knowing that I could maintain a pace of 30 minute miles helped me focus through the pain in my feet. I kept my head down a lot while I walked.

But there was still a lot to see, even without looking too closely at the ridgelines around me. I could see the road ahead of me, gently rolling. The trees and brush forming green canyon walls on either side. The murmur and splash of Smith Creek. A sidestream incongruously crossing the road just before a newly constructed bridge.

Head down hiking time down the road. 

Water before a bridge. 

A nice, new bridge on the road.

I saw a camping spot for horse parties, complete with hitching posts, and another sign for the Smith Creek Cut-Off Trail. I kept an eye out for places to turn the car around when I drove it down to get Ambrose. I also looked at the road itself, eyeing places that our Ford Focus might not get past. When I saw those I tried to re-calibrate how far down the road I could come to get Ambrose.

Hitching post at a horse camping spot.

I should have taken the cutoff trail!

I re-calibrated a lot. Especially when the road was no longer hard packed dirt, but loose dust that buried my boots a few inches and floated around me in clouds with every step. I began to worry about driving that road in the dark.

I limited my water intake to make sure that I had enough to get me to the car. I only drank every 30 minutes. It gave me something to look forward to.

When I saw an old cabin slowly returning to nature, I had to stop and take pictures, but I lost some to my haste. I wanted to look at them more closely, to examine their interiors and see what I could see. But I wanted more to get to the car before dark.

The golden light of sunset paints the tops of the trees. 

The road just keeps going, and going, and going. 

Nature always wins. 

But there's still a door frame here, a discernible structure through the ravages of time.

After 8, I passed a road that helped me place myself. There was a smell of a campfire or wood stove down the road, but I didn’t head down it. I didn’t know if it was private property or a campsite or what. And I was getting closer to the car. I starting noticing the ridgeline coming down on my right and hoped that it was the one near the car.

The side road helped me place myself on the GPS in better context. 

More old structures got a few quick photos, but I was motivated now. I had to be close. Seeing the trailhead where Ambrose and I had set off was almost anticlimactic. Just one more hill - which was a lot steeper than I remembered - and there. The car! A toilet! Before 8:30!

That house looks like it could still be in use. Maybe.

Why is this road still going???

Oh! Oh! Oh! I remember this part!

Just one more hill to the car. One. More. Hill. 

I went to the toilet first. Then the car where I changed into dry, clean clothes.

What a beautiful sight!

At last! The car! 

The effects of hiking with little water and little food caught up to me. I sat in the driver’s seat of the car, ate handfuls of gorp, drank a coconut water and took about 20 minutes to rest. And then I started the car and began my rescue ranger mission.

I drove slowly down that steep, curving hill to the trailhead.

And I hit a rock. I couldn’t get past it, so I backed up a bit and tried a different trajectory down the hill. Unfortunately, the road was so narrow, there weren’t that many trajectories to choose from. I hit a rock again, possibly the same rock, and felt the beginnings of panic.

The last thing I wanted to do was break the car out here, miles and miles from where we could get it serviced. And so I made a tough decision. I would turn back. Ambrose would have to walk himself out.

I backed up the hill, not without a few more moments of panic as I failed to fully account for the curvature of the road in my uphill reversal. But I made it. And I parked on the opposite side of the road from where we had been parked, because it was closer to the toilet and grassier.

I got to work so I wouldn’t have to think too much about leaving Ambrose to his own devices.

I pitched the car camping tent right next to the car. I inflated our car camping air mattresses and laid out the down comforter. Darkness fell.

I took a coconut water down the trail and sat at the trailhead. My headlamp batteries were running low, and I had somehow managed to forget to refill my spares, so I sat in the darkness before moonrise, listening to the water of the creek rush by, the wind rustling the branches of the trees and strained my dark adapted eyes for signs of Ambrose’s headlamp.

When I grew too cold, I set the coconut water on a wooden post near the trailhead and went back to the car. I wrote my fiction and read my books. I tried to keep my mind from imagining worst case scenarios.

Around 10 I decided I should cook dinner. I made a rice a roni type thing with tuna added using the Coleman stove set on the grassy gravel of the parking lot. Focusing on cooking helped me not to worry as much, but I was worried. I wondered if Ambrose might decide it would be better to stay the night somewhere along the road.

I ate as much as I could force myself to. I knew I was hungry, but my nerves made my appetite disappear. I set the pot on the passenger’s seat in the car when I had eaten all I could. It might still be warm when Ambrose arrived.

When the moon rose, I took handfuls of dark gravel from a pile near where we had been parked and made an arrow across the road to point Ambrose to the car. It showed up pretty well on the light gravel of the road even in the moonlight. With a headlamp on it, the sign was very clear.

I finished one book and started another. At nearly 1 in the morning, I decided I needed to try and sleep. If I was going to have to hike out in the morning to find my husband, then I needed to get some rest myself. I went to the tent and changed into long underwear for sleeping. I had accidentally left the car light on, but it helped me see, even through the tent wall.

And then I saw that there was another light.

Ambrose’s headlamp.

I scrambled out of the tent and did my best to help him. From when we started in the morning to the moment he arrived was almost 18 hours; the last 6 hours with no breaks and no food. He'd run out of water more than 2 hours before he got to the car. I gave him a coconut water and settled him into the driver’s seat. I took his boots off his feet and got him his sandals. I got him into the tent, got food into him, warmed him up under the down comforter and nagged him about drinking more when he started to shiver, just a bit.

I have never been so relieved to see him before in my life.